Life being $&@?!$&

I'm blogging using my phone here at coasta sands. Helping out at my cousin's birthday chalet. The theme is ROCK n ROLL. And everyone here is in black and tights. And the decorations are all in gold and black. A good idea for my 21st bdae in may.

School has been irritating I guess. Had a quiz last Monday. A quiz of only 10 mins. I entered the lecture threatre and the lecturer said, "put your pens down." yes, being fadilah, I was late for only 10 mins. I could feel all eyes were on me. It's like a slap on my face when the lecturer asked the rest to put their pens down just when I entered the threatre room.

And the next lecture, my name, together with other 4 names, were shown right in front of everyone in the maths lecture by the lecturer. Waa. I guess now everyone would have known my name. &$@!!!%#>^*+{}€£££•

And since then, my lecturer remembers my name which is not a good thing I think. The possibility of getting shoot and axe by him is high now. Haizzz.

And last Saturday was sweet. Didn't have pictures taken though. Pokey and I lie down right smack in the middle of our school to watch the stars. The stars was so bright. It was very sweet but it got freaking cold when it past 12am. Pokey and me planned to get a bf in 3 years time if not, I will plan to grow a bf together with neh neh.

And I need to start running mannnnnn. I cant run since i have been havin flu and running nose. I think I will die during the 148km bike rally in 2 weeks time.

I'm such a emo and anti-social person because I'm sitting at nne corner typing this post all by myself.

Okok. Got to go. Tata.

Testinggg

Haha. Yes I am a noob. And I am pretty amazed by this. Haha. I feel high tech-Ed right now. Yipeeeeeeeeee.

i wish i did

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

i am not love sick.
just love this song.

nwe phone and number

needs

i need

1. school bag.
- using the tote bag can be pretty one-sided-ly-heavy

2. Wallet
- i need to see my money and cards

3. Watch
- i feel naked without my favourite watch. i miss my GUESS watch. it was a present from parents and now, its stolen. =(

4. Calculator
- i need one that can be use. i have GC but i am not comfotable using it. i key in the numbers super slow when i use GC.

5. iPod cable and charger
- i didnt realise its gone when i wanted to charge my iPod. =(

6. handphone and a line
- i desperately need this now. i feel so out-of-reach from other people. and i am like my mum's secretary when i have to forward her sms and reply her calls because i am using her number.

7. i need to sort out my complicated and messy life.
- i need time and the strength to do so. school tests, tutorials are becoming more challenging.

on a lighter note, I LEARNT SOMETHING IN SCHOOL TODAY!!! i feel knowledgeable.
hahaha. that shows how much i gain in school because i dont usually learn when i go to school.

shopping anyone?

redha dengan kesemua ini.

i am sorry

I think there is certainly something wrong with me. i feel super different right now. I dont know what is causing this. Don’t ask me so many questions. I will just ended up getting annoyed and will probably ignore you because I, MYSELF, don’t know what is wrong.

I need time to recuperate. I need time.

Till now, perhaps the best way i stay away from everything from now on. I want to get my mind busy with other stuffs. Yes, you can call it running away from my problems. But it is ironic because i don’t know what the problem is also.

WHY must things come all at once?!

Till then, take care.

And to you,

i am sorry. I didn’t know you will think of me like that. i didn’t know that you have the thought that i don’t want to talk to you. its entirely not true. I am sorry. I haven’t been talking also. people have been coming to me and talk. Of which i will reply. I am sorry if i did hurt you in any way or so. I am sorry if i caused you so much trouble. I didn’t intend to do such things to you. like i said, i have lots to talk to you but i cant find the time and i dont know where to start. This just makes everything more awkward for the both of us. It takes two to make things happen.

Whatever it is, i am sorry. I just suck.



I feel like spending my whole free time in school. Being at home never helps me.

the feeling of uncertainty

funnyyy

its a whole different feeling altogether

you are my A and B

where's my happy ending?

suppose to be heading to Melaka right now.
waiting for dear parents to come home.

i dont know what You planned for me. but i am sincere in getting whatever You will throw at me.

dont try.

Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

and i was super pissed just now. i didnt know that i actually did that. it has always been my mum doing that kinda thing. i guess its in the blood. urgh. whatever. i felt good after that though everyone was looking at me. felt the eyes all directed towards me.

i dont bite. i just kill. LOL. hahaha.

and thanks guys for the tag. i "hearts" you guys many many. lol.

new year new start